Sunday, November 2, 2008

The Ring

you spend a lot of time thinking about it and wondering, hoping this is right. After much internal speculation you decide to make the big move. you look and look, trying to find the best one...we at least the best one you can afford. You pick out one that you think she will absolutely love...it is within your price range...well, maybe JUST outside it but you are willing to get it anyway...so you buy it. You keep it in your pocket trying to decide the best time...should it be spontaneous or should you plan it all out. Every time you see her you are nervous because you know she has no idea what is in your pocket.
you finally decide to plan it out so you reserve a house on the beach and make all the necessary arrangements...pack the food, the candles, the music and anything else you can think of. The weekend has FINALLY arrived and you two go away...to the beach. You show her the place you rented and she just loves it. Before dinner you take the opportunity to show her how much you love her...and then after dinner you show her again. The next day you try and decide the perfect time...the weather is great. First the two of you go out to breakfast and do some sight seeing. then you come back to the house. You decide this is the time. you put on the shirt she has always loved and then you ask her if she wants to take a walk on the beach...
The two of you are holding hands and looking at each other like two people in love. You dont really walk that far when you cant wait any longer...slowly you let her get a little bit ahead of you and decide now is the time. She realizes that you are have faded back and she turns around...to see you kneeling on one knee in the sand...her eyes go wide and she covers her mouth...you tell her that you love her so much and ask her if she will marry you as you are pulling the ring out of your pocket...she sees it and says yes. you stand up and slide the ring on her finger and you hold her so tight she has difficulty breathing.
You start to walk back to the house...when you get there you put on some special music...and ask her to dance...as you are dancing she starts to cry and tells you she realizes how happy she truly is with you. Everything is so perfect!!!
You really are still amazed that you are with such a wonderful woman and dont know what you did to deserve her.
when you get back home you start letting people know the news and they are happy for you and for her. things start moving forward...but there really is no rush to get married soon...so you decide to move in together...her and her kids are to move in with you. As the time gets closer they are going to move in you can already start to feel the stress and pressure of everything changing...but you know it will all work out.
Then the big day happens...they move in. it is a long day moving stuff but you know it will all be worth it. You are happily anticipating her sleeping in your bed with you...when it is no longer your bed...now it is our bed. The two of you climb into bed and you move over to put your arm around her and she says "I'm really tired." all the wind is just knocked out of you. You just roll over and say goodnight.
from that point on everything changes. you dont understand it...you dont believe it...you dont know what to do. but you keep telling yourself...it will all work out. Times passes and it doesnt get much better...doesnt get much easier...the two of you have a lot of pressure against you in this relationship...in this situation...you begin to wonder if you will all make it through this...but you keep telling yourself that it will work out.
More time passes and you realize there are a lot less good days...and the bad days seem to last months at a time. After about a year and a half she lets you know that she is going to move out...and that she is actively looking.
The time comes when she tells you she has found a place and will be moving out soon...then the day comes when you come home and most of their stuff is gone...it is real...it has happened.
And in a box, on top of your dresser....there it is...the ring sitting there....looking empty.
Now everything is done and you are still there all alone with this ring...the thing you put your heart and soul in...and now in the end of all of this, that is all there is...you and the ring.......

2 comments:

Carrie Amie said...

this is so sad.

Dan said...

Thanks for the comment Carrie